In the last month or so before you stopped really talking in the last few weeks, I had all those feelings that I had in my dream. All I wanted was for you to feel comfortable and peace. I just wanted you to feel love. You were so loved and I just wanted to be with you. And when I was with you I just wanted to sit with you and feel your warmth. Even if it was to just place my hand on your foot. Quietly and peaceful.
In the end when you were not able to communicate I did not want you to be alone. I obsessively thought about it. I wanted someone to be there with you at all times. Just be there because of my own fears.